But then it's sad to think that society is structured in such a way that they can't then have that fantasy with their partner.

yeah yeah or they can't just express like a bit of feminine like wear a pink shirt to work like when you know i mean growing up male like it's bizarre but it's almost like the worst thing you can be called as a guy is gay that's the worst it was like like i remember one time like because i was carrying my books like against my across my chest and someone's like only girls do that like you're supposed to carry it at your side and i was like Who noticed? I was neurotic about everything.

Of course.

I had this shirt once with these little tiny vents under the armpit, and I noticed girl shirts had that, and I was like, oh my God, I can't.

Yeah, yeah.

I'm like, this is the worst thing in the world.

For me, I was hiding who I was in general.

you look them in the eye when you do the crowd work