Wow.

And so [laughs] I think, you know, once that marriage ended and I was free from that, and I was like, oh, like I s- parts of me came back to my s- I was like, wait, I forgot, I, I am a chatterer and I do, um, I love people and I love getting around.

I mean, I did that over those 20 years, but by myself.

I mean, I, I took myself to Miami.

I'm like, "I can do this," and I was freaked out, but I'm like, "I, I've done this.

I used to travel by myself all the time.

What i- what's happening here?" So- I think, I think I just was like, "I don't wanna spend another 20 years..." I, I had to grieve all the ways I had...

Mm.

Yeah.

Yeah, I mean, you know, I remember when I got my period, I remember being horrified because I'm like, great, now it's just going to be this onslaught of shame at school from the boys and just in general.

In my brain, it was, you know, it was associated with something bad.

I'm like, no, this is actually...

the next progression, you know, and I think I like your point about, you know, everybody, literally every body is going to be different, right? So like what feels good to my body and what I enjoy is going to be different to what you might enjoy or Callie might enjoy, you know, And I think it was the same thing with menopause.

I had all these symptoms, but not everybody that I know has the same symptoms sometimes, but not always.

It's like, okay, the big lesson for me or the big really pivot was like daring to be in my body.

I mean, I remember I was in New