I mean, I didn't need it then, thank

fucking God.

But yeah, you've lived your life as of I, even 13, I wasn't having sex then, but you've lived your life with this freedom and even though it got taken away at a time when, you know, you don't really care about having babies anymore, it's... painful to watch.

And then to pile on the lack of care that people seem to have about hormones is just, it's insulting as a woman, like it's just insulting.

And I think that people just need to be louder about it to take the shame out of being on hormones, like why there's attached to any of that.

I have no idea.

I'd be much more shameful of my dried up vagina than my beautiful pink one.

Whatever it is, what do you think would change in the world? How would things be?

I just sit there and go, where did Heidi find this incredible fashion sense? And where do you go and find the

clothes? It's funny because the clothing and the getting dressed was just a way to tell stories.

It was a vehicle to do voiceovers.

And when I first started on TikTok, it was just outfits because...

For years on Instagram, I posted my outfit every day in my stories and I had 4,000 followers and nobody cared.

Nobody ever commented, but people in life when I was out would say, oh God, you should post your outfit.

So I did, nobody cared.

How do you feel about that? And what are you hearing from them?

Tell us a little bit about your friendship origin story.

I had written a pitch for a show called The Magic Dark, and I got an email from Sony saying, "Constance Zimmer would like to meet you and talk about playing the lead in this show." And as soon as I shit my pants, I got on a call with Constance because I was such a massive fan of Unreal and Entourage and House of Cards and everything she'd ever done.

It was one of those "She can't be real person" kinda thing.

We had a Zoom meeting, and I instantly knew that I wanted to be friends with her for the rest of my life.

And I said to her, "We're not gonna make this show, but I've written five other things for you, so don't worry about it." And then I forced her to come over to my house like two days later and I gave her all my clothes and made her make dumb videos and here we are.

But also, let's preface this by saying it was 2020 so we had to meet over Zoom, right? Nobody was meeting in person and yet I went and did something illegal and I met her outside in her backyard.

You know, we sat on couches across the yard.

Curious to hear, what is this particular friendship like for you compared to past decades of your life, and what is friendship like in general in terms of the unique role that it plays for you?

That sounds like a lot.

I feel like 85 is a lot.

We started with 40 and I was like in it.

And they were like, we think you need more.

I went up to 60, at which point I asked them if I was still breathing because I didn't know and thought I was going to die.

And then they said, we think you need a little more because I was fighting the sink in.

Anybody who likes drugs will love ketamine because it is gorgeous.

Incredible name.

It is

... on so many levels.

You have no idea where your life could be tomorrow.

Do you think I thought three years ago I'd have two million people following this old lady on Instagram in her underwear? Like, what?No.

That wasn't even a thought in my fucking brain, which I think is the secret, you know, to not put all the projections on what you're doing.

Just do it and see what happens.

You know, stop worrying about where it's going or, or any of those things.

Yeah