So going through that process, given 15, 16 years of your life and trying very hard, you know, to have a child, like, How do you get over art and unforgiveness in that area and still have this beautiful spirit after being with a person and not being able to do it because of their own personal issues and mistakes?

Yeah.

It's a great question.

And the process that I went through of finding myself again... opened up a lot of truths to me that I didn't realize about myself.

Um, and a few being that, you know, I didn't even want children until very late.

Remember, I didn't even want to get married until later.

So I was kind of that girl who was like, I might never have children until the day it hits you and you go, why all of a sudden everywhere we go, our little kids going, ah, pick me up.

You better have a little bit of that.

on it,

I was actually shocked by what I saw.

And it had nothing to do with my physical appearance, meaning how much weight I had gained over time or anything like that.

I actually zoomed in and looked at my face.

And The girl I thought I was, the girl in my head, I project to be, wasn't there.

And I actually, you know, kind of almost didn't know who I was looking at.

And I say this sounds a little cliche.

As you're going through this five-year journey, where did you push the edges or what questions did you have to ask? Or how did you find the contrast into what you weren't to then now find who you are?