So the silent call of the heart, what is that?

That is my testimony of sort of the journey that I've been on in as succinct and honest a way as I could put it, because I felt like it was the only way to kind of like confess the truth of what had happened in discovering that like books understand like knowledge weren't going to become the way that I could grow and learn and change into becoming who I thought I was supposed to become or that understanding is progressive and not static so at some point along the way i discovered this sort of like inner impulse that i hadn't really been fully aware of prior and it was not like some inner voice or some like higher self or any kind of like something that originates with me because it was always sort of like leading me and telling me things that I didn't want to know, didn't want to really understand, didn't want to change about myself.

And.

But, you know, again, I think I write in the book that I understand it is like entirely other than me.

And.

it leads me to understand things that I couldn't really have known on my own at all.

And so I'm not trying to say this is even some sort of like wildly mystical thing.

illuminations that are happening to you as you research this.