it's scary to confront yourself.

It's scary.

It really is scary.

And it like, it takes guts to do it.

And I think that that was I think that that's the reason why I like I always like take these like little breaks, I call them and They never really make sense to me when it's happening, but it makes sense when I feel like I'm kind of like, not on the other side, but when I'm gaining some clarity and when I'm gaining some insight.

And, you know, I'm grateful that I have a... a small group of close loved ones friends and family that they understand and they know like oh child she's going through a moment like she's you know I go through my little cocoon phase but there's a lot of people that don't understand it and it's like it's hard because sometimes I don't even understand it but it's just like I just like kind of like really just like need to separate and kind of like understand, because like I said, I'm the type that like I just like X questions.

I ask myself a lot of questions and I can't lie to myself.

Okay, so where are you at in this phase of your life? What are you excited about? We were talking about your grandbaby earlier.