Like, w- for you, was there a moment that you can kind of point to where things started to feel off, or was it like a, a gradual experience for you? Um, yeah, I guess kinda talk to that.

I don't wanna say, I don't think it was gradual.

I think I had a lot of moments.

Um, I had a lot of moments along the way, and I even had moments where I was, like, brave enough to bring it up.

Um, and I think, I think, um, because, again, you know, you just brought it up, you were craving that approval.

I was craving someone who could say, like, "The way your brain works is good." [laughs] You know? Like, "You process things differently, and that's good." Um, every time I would bring something up, it would, that was the piece that was spun, and it was, "Hey, if you want, if you want the way you think and process and lead and the way that you're achieving things to continue, you can't do that."

Yeah.

Right? Um, and so I think so much of my faith journey has had to be almost singular of just navigating it on my own.