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Well, today I actually am celebrating two and a half years of continued sobriety.

Firstly, I never thought I'd be saying that because I was not a quitter.

I never thought I'd be quitting alcohol and drugs as it was...

They became like my best friend and I put them above everything else.

But to go back a little, I grew up feeling lacking, you know, that gay kid that just didn't fit in and...

Yeah, I felt very alone.

You've got to chase your, you know, and then like, when did it switch from you from like chasing achievements to an ambition and to chasing spiritual ambition or like a wholeness within you?

What did that look like?

Well, I'll take you back a little bit more than Hollywood because that's the boring part.

But like growing up in Devon, I was in quite a dysfunctional household and my coping mechanism was escapism.

Like very early, I learned how to disassociate from what was going on because it was just a lot of Scary things were happening at home.

And then at school, I was bullied.

I was dyslexic, ADD.

So I kind of felt like I missed the life manual most kids had.

How difficult was that?