What?

I'd just go, just because I wanted to embrace the freedom.

What? So I'd just go and take myself off, I'd park up, and I'd just like, I'd have my own little cooking set up and everything.

Like a man of the wilderness.

Yeah, and that's what I did, and I'd just go and work on the site for the day, and that was just my life, and I loved it.

But I used to, I got myself, again, when I throw myself at something, I throw myself in it 100%, and I started like...

I'd park up somewhere, my Freelander, and I'd go off on just a one-man band, take my tent, I'd go wild camping, and I used to go a couple of nights at a time, people wouldn't hear from us for days, because I just used to go out and just live in the wild, and just live really, just wild swimming, tarns and stuff like that, and just... embrace my own company and just learn and i learned so much i learned like just a lot about myself reading i think it was the healing that i needed from from the army um and obviously a lot of things that i'd learned through the army was i was able to do that but i just i loved it um And then I started to love it a bit too much and I started to drink when I used to go to these places.

so