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50 things.

Pardon me.

And so we're talking about it, and they get automatic podcasts with sponsors, and they're able to really promote their own voices to get the word out and connect, while as us regular folks out here are doing our own thing with our own voice.

And we don't have the resources, and so we're out here.

Also, if you wanna do something that you don't enjoy that you see on your face or your body, we don't wanna shame each other on that either, but it's a little bit challenging if you wanna jump onto the Botox and fillers train and ride that puppy, because it's a lot of money.

And I have done that before, 'cause at one point my f- my face absolutely deflated after I, I lost some weight getting healthy.

When you were talking about it took you three times, so through the challenges, dare I say the failures that happened along the way, is there something that really helped, helped you learn? Something you really took away from that?

Okay.

Just let your fingers do the wandering on your keyboard online and tap in Diane, and then my whole last name is Dean, D-E-A-N hyphen E-P-P-S, and you'll discover lots of writing and maybe some other things that as you go through screen after screen you'll say, "Oh my, look at what she has then." I'll just leave it there.

Some of it's rather bawdy, and you'll see.

You'll see what I mean if you find it.

So that's where I'm everywhere.

Essays, and some of them are slight- kind of serious essays, but there's always a little humor embedded.

And then you asked about the coping mechanism.

How does that work? Tell us how that works.