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Um, navigating a very noisy and distorted world through trying, um, to go back to my authentic self, for sake of a better word.

Um, and trying to help anchor others through this huge change we're going through, through love and light.

Um, and that's been my new journey and it's been amazing, and, uh, it's become like my purpose, or what is my purpose.

While in between jobs, 'cause the industry is inside out, upside down, and completely changed-

Right

... is what it would feel like.

So- I just got chills.

I need to get things straightened out"?

Uh, I'm really glad you asked me that question because I think that addiction is very misunderstood.

Um, it's rarely you wake up and go, "Oh, I have a problem." Deep down inside, everybody who struggles with addiction knows something's not right, um, and it's that denial, the shame, the not knowing how to control it.

"Why can't I be a normie like everybody else?" All these layers.

The reason why you're drinking or using drugs, right? All of these layers on top that go on that just bury the fact that, um, you're slowly dying inside.

So did I take off? You know, what was it, twenty, uh, 16 years ago? No.

Um, it's always been like, uh, it started with an eating disorder when I was younger, and then it slipped into, you ju- it just, it slithers its way and, you know, manipulates and creeps into corners of your life until, yeah, I absolutely started smoking cigarettes and drinking.

I'm really fascinated by your decision there.