Mm

... perspective that I have on my life.

I'm obsessing on what I don't wanna be, and rather I have to shift my focus on what I do want to be.

And so I, I don't know, I, I think I had someone else share this idea with me, but I began searching for other men in my life who I respected, I admired, and I was attracted to.

Not, you know, physically attracted to, but attracted to in terms of, like, their character and their behavior.

And so from there, this sounds creepy maybe [chuckles] but I c- I kinda scanned my, my networks and my environment for men that I just was like, "You know what? There's something cool about this guy.

I would love to be him in this way." And so I, you know, I started hanging out with one friend in particular 'cause I just liked his dad, and I would watch how he interacted with his wife, with his kids.

Hmm.