And then a year later, it

dawned on me that this is not going according to the vows, that we're not living up to them.

So that was like the crack in the... facade, I guess, of this mirage that it's all going to be roses and puppy dogs and rainbows and not have to do any work and just have it magically happen.

And so it started with just noticing that things aren't working and and i just i tried like reaching for books like whatever books i found on amazon i had no idea i hadn't found any of the big ones like gotman or eft or any of the like stuff that really helped and so i just tried to improve our sex life let's say in the first marriage and that didn't help at all i didn't know how to communicate i didn't know how to relate and But it was already over.

And so that one, I basically learned how to talk, how to one of the big things was finance.

Like I couldn't tell her my financial situation because I was scared to death that she would leave.

She left anyway.

I mean, it's a process, right? You go through it step by step.