Mm

...

in a relationship.

Not even that, but a step further, which is why I kept creating these, like, homes and domesticating, like, domestic situations, um, and why I was so intent on, quote, unquote, like, settling down in some kinda traditional way-

Mm

... from childhood, childhood trauma, essentially, and I was just chasing ways to fill that hole.

I think that intensity and the validation and the reassurance was, um, w- you know, was to temporarily fill a hole in me.

And same with all the long relationships and marriage and th- wanting to create a home life, even though I personally really wasn't capable or ready for that.