So lots of shame about...

everything basically.

Um, and, um, yeah.

And so before I get into the really hard stuff, I think the miraculous start, um, that I had was having a mother who, despite norms at the time being kind of Dr. Spock and don't spoil the baby and, you know, those types of things was, um, extremely gifted with babies and toddlers.

And so I know that my first year, a couple of years, it was sort of an attachment parenting when there was an attachment parenting at the time we co-slept and I was held a lot and all of that sort of thing.

And so naming that gift and also again, because we're going to get into some hard stuff, naming and acknowledging the ancestral, especially maternal line of what these women were dealing with.

My grandmother was very Catholic and had 11 children after the Great Depression because contraception was against the Catholic church, right? So dealing with all of that and the coldness and traumatic history in her family might own mother was a sister in the convent from ages 15 to 26.

Johnson.