I know you spoke about kind of, um, and I'm sure you were a f- you know, fantastic mum when you were, but do you mind talking about some of the challenges around kind of being aware that you're in active addiction, trying to be a mum, and then how that kind of led up to the point of you trying to change your relationship with it? Because you're obviously looking after other people, but really you just need to look after yourself at that point.

Yeah, I think c- um, look, there were challenges every day of trying to keep a drug addiction under wraps whilst painting this picture of being this great mother on the outside.

Um, because I, I actually wasn't doing...

I wasn't being the mum I wanted to be.

I wanted to be someone who's a good role model and teach my kids right from wrong.

And, and although I was doing the basics, I, I wasn't really doing that.

Um, I was always on a comedown or a hangover or buzzing, so my patience and tolerance and my presence were just not there.

Mm