So what were you thinking, like walking into all of that? Like she prepped you a little bit, but you really probably can't grasp it until you experience it.

That was and that was her whole thing.

She used to tell me, she was like, if I would have told you too much, baby, then A, you wouldn't have believed it.

Then B, your head would have been fucked up.

She was like, if I just tell you a little bit and then let you guide yourself through the maze.

And she was like, you'll put it together.

and that's exactly what happened that's exactly what happened the first time she said i don't expect you to do anything you know if you don't want to um and i but i did i did do something i did do something um i wouldn't say that i was it was the greatest performance in the world because i was still like what is this You know, with people standing around you and guys jagging their dicks off while you're down fucking.

So how did after that party the escorting kind of develop from there? And were all of your experiences after that, were they all compensated experiences? Or, you know, how did the general setup of that go? Um...

And

the moment was he he was giving this talk the year that his mother died and the year that he was diagnosed with cancer.

And he says he remembers after his mother died, he got on a plane in Baltimore and he was 40.

And he thought, oh, my God, I'm an orphan.

And he remembers saying he was really angry about it, like as if it was unfair that a 40-year-old person could be an orphan, that he no longer has parents.

And he started reflecting on that.

why we have certain expectations in life and whether those are realistic expectations or not.

So I, In our communication, how do we reach down and really grasp what is underlying what that other person is saying? And this is, it's a different way of listening, I guess.

beginning.

And then you want to be able to blend in.

OK, because believe me, they've already discussed exactly who they're looking for, what type of bull they're looking for, height, weight, et cetera, how they want them to dress, blah, blah, blah.

That's why they chose me.

OK, so I'm just coming in there.

I'm just trying to blend in, make them feel good, make them feel comfortable.

If they're veterans and, you know, they immediately want to, you know, hey, we don't need to talk and we're ready to do this.

Yeah.