I feel like this is all kind of tied together with your work

too.

So finding ritual and finding meaning and everything in these deaths, for someone who is not really spiritual who you know I didn't grow up Buddhist I didn't grow up Catholic or you know Shinto or anything so this really kind of goes into ancestral belonging this This way that we can sort of reconnect or redefine our ancestral connections in this modern world.

So, yeah, I've been able to create new rituals, build in new traditions for Emmy and for my dad.

And that has it's cool because I feel so empowered that like I get to choose things.

how much I want my daughter in our life or a part of our family as I want.

Her ashes sit on the living room shelf right beside the TV.

And I'm curious, like, if you had any thoughts on how... maybe we're in like a portal