Mm-hmm

... once again, right, now I'm seeing girls on Playboy, blondes mostly, big tits, pussies, guys are eating them out, they're g- girls and girls.

So now I'm like, I'm like, wow, it's overly stimulated, right? So but also this was what I'm seeing.

I'm, I'm loving and enjoying, right, the, the tits, blonde, skinny, whatever, right? So now m- my brain is like, "Okay, this is what a woman should be like," right?

Right.

But a- and sobriety and, you know, therapy and stuff, but also that's why, like, I wanted to, like, change the way I look 'cause I didn't feel good.

I didn't think I was gonna be accepted.

Yeah.