Now, but also at the time.

I think it was very beautiful to see that the connection I have built with my people around me is so strong and so beyond everything that I can really trust on them to be there and And to this point, most of the time I was the person being there for other people.

And of course, I also had problems and struggles, but I never was relying on someone to actually help me with something or to like, be like, that I was not able to move or not able to deal with situations and every time i was in the hospital people were like making a schedule of coming like writing in the whatsapp group i'm coming that day i'm coming that day do you need something and um also the connection my between my friends and my family because of my family it was so hard to deal with their emotions and they didn't really have people so much to talk about it, which are also in the situation, except for my friends.

So there's, my grandma started calling my friends and reassuring how I am doing and how I am because she was so afraid also to, to that I might not tell the truth that I try to keep up a picture by telling I'm fine, grandma, don't worry, I'm, going out for pizza right now, and she couldn't really trust my happy side, and then she got reassured by my friends, like, oh, yeah, Anna's really doing great, and don't worry about it, and we're taking care of her, and she will make it, and this helped me also so much that this kind of emotional work with everyone that it was not only my job to do, everybody was helping each other and being there for each other, and this is also something nobody can take away from us as my group of friends and family.

Like I can even notice it now, two years later, that if people of my friend group meet, which are not necessarily friends by themselves, but they're already so connected through what they've been through by the fear of losing me and the that i might die is something that connected them so deeply that it's something so peaceful and i think it's something which carries on right now as well that i'm just enjoying bringing people together in a way and I'm also a very sensitive person.

Like I sense if someone is in the room and I don't want anybody to feel excluded in a way.

And I always want to have doors open.

Is there a point at which you start to get annoyed talking about it as in?