Hmm

...

I will say, and in the acting world, I did not see that.

And as a sensitive person really picking up on people's energy and the atmospheres I was in, it was the one thing about acting that scared me.

So I took note to that, and then our other best friend, Helen Owen, her husband, Zach, slid into my boyfriend at the time's DMs and asked to go to dinner.

We all went to dinner, and Helen was like, "I just started doing social media," and she kind of introduced it to me in a bit of a different way.

It was more just sharing things she was passionate about, and a lot of that was travel and swimsuits and clothes.

Yeah.

[laughs]

But, um, I like, I love new chapters.

It's thrilling, and however, yeah, I've, I've just always had that thing where I don't wanna fail if I've- Especially I think when you, I don't know about you, but I, I feel like I'm an open book to a certain level.

But in an intimate and romantic way, I'm very closed off.

And so when I let someone in, it's like I just feel like I need to see it through to, like, such a point of almost, like, a detrimental point.

And it's funny because after that I was, like, thriving and single and feeling so free from, you know, what was mine personally was a toxic relationship where I didn't know so many things.

There was a lot of lying and cheating and, and coming out of that and being happy alone was so thrilling.

Mm-hmm.

the last couple of years, 'cause it's been intense.

It has, yeah.

Um, well, going back to when I moved to LA, I think it kind of started, I was 19, and I moved here, and I was really excited.

I was in, um, a relationship, and that's kind of when I got started with social media 'cause he was in the business.

Um, and I kinda judged it at first, and then I was like, "This actually is just a way to, like, be creative." I mean, this was in 2016, right? So it was a way to just be creative and have the freedom to do kind of whatever you wanted.

And, um, we...

It was a really, it was a really traumatizing breakup.

... and out of this energy helped you heal your nervous system, and what are things that you're doing on a daily basis to allow yourself to flourish?

All of a sudden you wake up next to a guy and you're like, or girl, and you're just like, this is not where I want to

be.

This is not who I want to wake up with.

Exactly what happened.

I feel like I've always been since very little, a very ambitious person in the sense of like, I will make my own path and I'll believe in myself and I'll get there somehow.

Like I was like, I want to be an actor and I did it.

And I was like, I want to move to LA.

Yeah.