Do you feel uncomfortable when you pass a straight?

No, I don't feel uncomfortable when I pass the straight.

I just want to be able to fuck all women I want to fuck.

And I don't feel that like I it's so interesting.

I'm always seeing myself through like the object of my desire.

This sounds so heady.

But like, I want to be the thing that they want.

I mean, then you get like the swingers and like...

Almost everything is like compat.

I'm like, I feel like everyone is compat.

Like seven years ago, eight years ago, I would've been know- I would've known that I was gay and been at this wedding and felt like lonely or sad or whatever, just like wanting attention, and I still would've like hooked up with this guy.

Maybe I wouldn't have had sex with him, but I would've like made out with him or whatever.

And I was like, "You know what, Ally? We're not doing that.

We're not doing that this time around.

... was no one like, "It's Pride Month"?

I, no, people are definitely saying that on the internet.

But then I think what you said, I think Survivor took it to a level where people were just like, like a game show of like on an island and it was locked.

Survivor is one of my favorite TV shows of all time, and Survivor is an amazing social experiment on a lot of different levels.

Living on this island is really interesting, just in terms of actual survival skills, but the social part of Survivor is really fascinating to me, like the alliances and the backstabbing and how to move through the game and the things different people get away with.

I am really into the show.

I'm like, I don't like that.

Yeah, I don't like it, but I do enjoy the voyeuristic element of just watching people live their lives and what they're like.

It's like, why? We like cribs.

I like watching Beverly Hills housewives and seeing how rich they are or how entitled they are or how out of touch they are.

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[laughs]Um, but we sit down for dinner- Yeah ... and we start having a conversation, and I'm like s- Well, we take the edibles.

We took the edibles.

And because we had take- But- But just say- You took it on an empty stomach ... we took...

No, but just say we took the edibles once before, and we got rip-roaring high.

But it was so fun.

But it was fun.

Good start.

Does the therapist have any suggestions on like where this comes from?

Yeah, I mean, I think there's like certain ingredients in my life.

Like I feel that like growing up closeted, Or which, by the way, I have like the loveliest best family and they're like liberal and love me.

So this is like crazy that I decided to fabricate this.

But growing up closeted, I always wanted the attention and the validation from the hot girl at school, the cheerleader, the homecoming queen.

And I think a lot of the ways in which I've dated and, you know, I go for these sort of like Adonises, like I go for women through the male gaze, like these really hot women who are cunts.

And...

Right.

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I don't know what that is.

No, I, I, I've tried to, like, get clear on that as best I can, and I, I feel, like, bad about that now.

Like, I, I don't want that to be my thing.

I think I just end up...

Yeah, what is that? Like, even this woman recently, this, like, married woman, I like...

They're flirting with me, and then I'm like, "Okay, I'm not looking for anything serious." And then they're usually, like, so cute.

Fucking Tuesday.