... to survive.

Total survival mode.

So that happened.

My parents were like, "You were such a happy kid." Like, "We like didn't, we thought that you were just like," you know, kids are super resilient.

Th- they were like, "We just thought you were like co- like, uh, dealing with it in the best way." Um, what they didn't know, 'cause I like wasn't ever talking about it, was like I just was like thinking about it nonstop.

I like, I thought I was like disgusting.

I thought I was this disease.

So I wonder, it's like, are they so dismissive because they're so closed off and they're like, "That's not what I was taught," or is it because they've had s- it's like, hey, on average I need to tell people no because people can't hand- I don't know.