Yeah,

I guess when I... look back I'm like I've spent and I love psychologists sorry love psychologists as well and I've seen so many but I just think I got to a point where I was like I feel like I've talked about this like my history I've shared openly about like my eating disorder and I kind of never dealt with that And I know people are like, is that really traumatic? But I'm like, yeah, it fucking was.

And I never, ever, like, dealt with the mental side.

I just got better.

So I got to a point where I was like, I really need to release this, like, trauma of I'll look back at certain times in my life and get this, like, shudder of just, like, sadness.

And I'm like, that's really – even, like, one day in yoga I was in, like, a pigeon pose and they say that's where you – and I just started crying and I can't even remember why, but I just think it was, like, this – release of something and I think you know you some people really respond to talk therapy and and maybe they do that's just all they need but then I feel like I've got to a point where I'm so sick of talking about it and I don't need to talk about it anymore I need to release something yeah

all.

I guess it's not full dissociation at all, but it's that just shutdown of everything.