But what does that look like now as well? Initially,

the boundary was just no contact for the longest time.

So kind of talking to her on Instagram and things like that, I set boundaries within myself of...

OK, I'm going to watch what she how she acts like the things that she says.

I'm going to pay attention to the things that she says, pay attention to what she does, make sure that I'm putting myself in a good situation and that all of these things are real that I'm hoping for, because it's easy to take what I've wanted for so long, wanting my mom, needing my mom.

And just want to throw away all the boundaries and just be like, I don't care how you treat me.

Just be my mom.

Anyways, because I can't just