A.R.?

My current situation is that my sister...

And after all that, I blame myself very much and very strong.

I shame myself, blame myself.

So the situation was I've been blaming her for old, old things that in my mind is she made to me when we were children.

But we have to socialize from time to time and I can't stop blaming her in socializing because that pain comes in current situation and I start to do that.

I can suppress it, press it and not to tell anything and Today, I did it.

You know what I mean by living turnarounds?