The Job Changed, But You Didn’t: The Patterns that Follow Us

When you look back through the years, even maybe even college or earlier, because I imagine these patterns didn't just appear in corporate.

Can you see signals that, you know, your body was starting out as that

whisper for you? If I look back even further to college, more of a teenager time, maybe even to childhood.

But for teenager time, I was one of those kids that did everything.

So I participated in every sport and was on every club.

Patterning started early.

And then most recently, then the symptoms I feel like I missed were basically not full exhaustion, but just a general underlying kind of hum that was sort of underneath everything that I did.

So just sort of a, I call this kind of a feeling.

I don't know if that's easy for people to understand, but it's, um, It was just sort of this general vibration of I need to keep active and busy.

And if I slow down, maybe something will fall apart or something's not going to be right or I'm going to miss out on something.

And then there's some other patterning for me was like perfectionism, making sure things were just right.

And then going through that over and over and over.

just to make sure that, I don't know, it was, I had it right.

I had it, it was in perfect, like some perfection.

I just thought I was, I'm strong.

I'm a strong person.

I can handle

anything.

One of the things that you mentioned, which I hadn't heard a lot of yet, is this concept of rest.

What is rest? How do people actually, like, okay, the massages are great and things like that, and the long weekends are great, but what have you learned about the importance of rest over the years? I do

love a good massage.

I like pampering, taking care of myself in that way.

It's just that that is almost like a Band-Aid if I don't actually go inward and address the low hum that I had.

I actually needed to go in and look at what is this hum? Why do I feel this need to constantly keep my standards really high to where I can't even achieve them, this perfectionism patterning? But that's actually, for me, I didn't experience rest until I went in and addressed that hum because there was no way for me to get to rest.

I was constantly performing and looking for satisfaction or some kind of, I don't know, resolution or outcome that was going to get me to rest.