Oct 1, 2026 · 25 min · 9 segments
What happens when trying to control your body—and your life—becomes the very thing keeping you stuck? In this episode, I’m talking with Alison about her experience with an eating disorder, and what…
Hi, Christina.
Thank you so much for having me.
I thought it would be helpful to hear from someone who I worked with personally who has struggled with an eating disorder.
And when we started working together, you were, uh, in the height of some eating disorder behaviors that you didn't really necessarily realize had become so full-blown.
Yeah.
I was noticing a lot more anxiety, uh, in my life, which didn't seem unusual because it was the height of the pandemic, and everyone felt very anxious.
There were a lot of anxious people even within my own household, and my world just suddenly got very small like everyone else's.
So it was really hard to gauge how out of control things were internally when externally everything was just kind of off the rails.
And what I noticed was my anxiety was really pushing my values out of perspective.
I wasn't able to be present and supportive of my husband.
I was obsessed with exercise, like, all the time.
I was worried about things that actually didn't feel as important as, as they really, as the other things were.
And to be honest, I, I think there was a gradual increase in that anxiety and the slow, steady relapse of my eating disorder, uh, for a few years before that.
But the pandemic certainly accelerated what might have happened anyway, which was that ultimate relapse.
What happened was I was listening to a lot of different podcasts and reading literature on how to resize, and I heard your interview, and I had this visceral reaction to the part where you were walking the hosts through the work of Byron Katie and using it to address the limiting beliefs around eating disorder related fears and thoughts.
And so it led me to look you up, and I was like, "Well, I definitely need some counseling, so let's, let's give this a try." And it was a bit of a, a shock when after a few sessions it became obvious and, and you very rightly pointed out, like, this isn't just anxiety.
This isn't just some troubles coping with the, the state of the world.
This is a full relapse, and we need to take this really seriously.
And I mean, that was super humbling.
Hi, Christina.
Thank you so much for having me.
I thought it would be helpful to hear from someone who I worked with personally who has struggled with an eating disorder.
And when we started working together, you were, uh, in the height of some eating disorder behaviors that you didn't really necessarily realize had become so full-blown.
Yeah.
I was noticing a lot more anxiety, uh, in my life, which didn't seem unusual because it was the height of the pandemic, and everyone felt very anxious.
There were a lot of anxious people even within my own household, and my world just suddenly got very small like everyone else's.
So it was really hard to gauge how out of control things were internally when externally everything was just kind of off the rails.
And what I noticed was my anxiety was really pushing my values out of perspective.
I wasn't able to be present and supportive of my husband.
I was obsessed with exercise, like, all the time.
I was worried about things that actually didn't feel as important as, as they really, as the other things were.
And to be honest, I, I think there was a gradual increase in that anxiety and the slow, steady relapse of my eating disorder, uh, for a few years before that.
But the pandemic certainly accelerated what might have happened anyway, which was that ultimate relapse.
What happened was I was listening to a lot of different podcasts and reading literature on how to resize, and I heard your interview, and I had this visceral reaction to the part where you were walking the hosts through the work of Byron Katie and using it to address the limiting beliefs around eating disorder related fears and thoughts.
And so it led me to look you up, and I was like, "Well, I definitely need some counseling, so let's, let's give this a try." And it was a bit of a, a shock when after a few sessions it became obvious and, and you very rightly pointed out, like, this isn't just anxiety.
This isn't just some troubles coping with the, the state of the world.
This is a full relapse, and we need to take this really seriously.
And I mean, that was super humbling.
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