God Told Me I Was the One Who Needed to Change

Immediately when I saw her get baptized, like from the time she went down to the time she come up, I went back to nine years old.

And it just was like, you ever seen a movie? They be flicking.

I saw it.

Like from the minute she went down to the time she came back up, bro, I went back to nine, seen her get shot, going to jail, everything going up, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.

And I removed myself.

And I said, oh, this changes everything.

Like, these last four months, bro, like, to finish this year, I want to really, like, lock in with God, bro.

You know what I'm saying? And, like, I want to plan.

I want to, like, really be in, like, I want to change the mindset of where I'm at.

Like, I want to really go, like, like, I want to put myself in this frame of mind, like, it's all possible.

Mm-hmm.

I just got to line it up.

But the problem, I was saying this when I was saying my prayers back then, just now, I said, God, like, I don't want what I want no more.

I don't want what, I done had enough of I want what I want.

I want what you want.

There it is.

See, God, like everything I've asked you for, like you've given it to me abundantly.

Even the life I live right now, bro, like such a modest life, bro, but it's like I'm living in the exceedingly abundantly, bro.

Right? And so I look at it now like if I keep asking God for stuff, it's like, man, like I feel like a spoiled child.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, I have my hardships, right? But like every time I ask God for something, it'd be like, here, here, here, here.

It's like he never tells me no, right? But I'm in a season now where I'm like, all right, God, like I fumbled some of the stuff you've given me.

But like, I could come back and you still be like, all right, Leon, here.

Yeah, I got you some more.

Right? So in this season, it's like, all right, God, like, let's start this off different.

Let me renew this relationship.

Like, I don't want to be a spoiled kid no more.

I want what you want.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I want to be quiet.

I want to be still.

Like, bro, you seem a little quiet right now.

I'm like, bro, I've just been praying all day.

I'm like, I want what you want.

I got everything I need, bro.

Financially, like, bro, I'm good for some years.

You know what I'm saying? Like, how do we build this business so it can impact the way it's supposed to be impacted? You know what I'm saying? How does the Wall Street Trap, a brand, impact lives generationally? How does the Freedom Center become a financial, spiritual institution? You know what I'm saying? How do we plant flag You know, how do we create other ones and put them in other cities? You know what I'm saying? And, you know, how do we shoot movies and write books? And how do we just become more impact? Like, and I look at my life, bro.

I look at my life, but I just look at all of this.

Like, I look at, like, what I could represent.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

If I position myself a certain way.

And I say, God, like...

When I look back at my life and I see that, I don't know how to say this.

I don't want to say this the right way.

I've been through so much stuff in my life.

If I put it out there in certain ways, I know it could be game-changing.

You know what I'm saying? If I put it out there in a way that people can, but sometimes I get distracted.

You know what I'm saying? Sometimes I'm, you know, just...

Having too much fun.

Mm-hmm.

You know, and sometimes I'm, you know, lifestyle life, and you got to deal with this.

Right? But how do you not put yourself in a space where you just be like, all right, God, like, I want what you want.

And I remember, bro, like, I remember, you ever seen somebody and you be like, oh.

Like, I'll just say this.

Like, I would say in my prayer, I say, God, like, this phase of my life, when people see me, I want them to see you.

Yeah.

Like, I don't want them to see, like, trap.

I want them to see me and be like, damn, bro, that boy walking with God right now.

You know what I'm saying? Because it's on me.

It's on my spirit.

It's on the way I talk.

It's on the way I think.

It's on the way I move.

You know what I'm saying? And so I was reading some of my notes back there just now, and it said that, it said, in my notes it was saying, like, don't be spiritually passive.

In my notes, I had that wrote.

I was about to say, you got to dig into that.

Don't be spiritually passive, meaning don't just read the Word, and then that's enough.

Don't just go to church, that's enough.

Don't just read your notes, that's enough.

Don't just pray, and that's good.

When you read the Word and you take in your notes, apply them actively.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

When you worshiping, you listen to worship music, be in gratitude.

When you speaking, speak the truth that you know.

Also, don't be spiritually passive.

Like, stand on the spiritual beliefs that you building.

Don't be spiritually passive.

Like, know what you learning and so when things start attacking you, use this and not you.

Like, use this truth and not you.

Not being spiritually passive, bruh.

You know what I'm saying? Not being spiritually passive and really just being like, more than anything, like being spiritually like aggressive.

Like, this is what I'm on.

You know what I'm saying? Like, and okay with losing whoever.

You

know what I'm saying? Like, this is what

I'm on.

And that's a different

walk.