Episode #43 (Season 12) - "My AA Birthday is Today"

I know that if I stay in self for long enough, the insanity of the first drink will return and I will decide to drink.

Of course, practicing these principles for 37 years, I've definitely gotten better at it for sure.

I do intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle me a lot.

You know, a few days ago I did an inventory and afterwards I felt amazing, new heights inside.

I had about 20 resentments and a couple of fears and, um, it still works after 37 years.

It still works.

What I do is if I can't, um, master a resentment on my own with everything I've learned and I continue to have arguments with people in my head for days and Pretend there's...

I'll do it exactly like you do a four-step.

I'll just sit down and say, who am I resentful at? I don't overthink it.

I think official.

I just write down, who am I resentful at? Oh, I'm resentful at that motherfucker.

Oh, what's the cause? The cause is this.

And then even as I'm writing it, the answer... is coming and the craziness goes away, a lot of it, just from writing it.

It's really helpful.

So I did this and I read it to somebody and it was incredible.

So I still do that.

And I still do my best to not trust fear and You know, I have made all kinds of mistakes in 37 years, obviously.

I've screwed up just about everything you can screw up.

But I actually Love the person I am today.

And it's a good feeling.