Week 21 & 22: Resting, Comparing, and Trying to Trust My Body

I have been having, um, weird like back, lower back, butt pain since, um, for about a year.

So since about like seven ish.

months postpartum with my first and I like I'm scared to share this with you because I don't want you especially if you're a first-time mom like I feel like these kind of stories um freaked me out so much and like made me terrified of pregnancy postpartum motherhood um But I also don't want to like not share with you because it's a possibility.

I started noticing this pain around seven-ish months postpartum and it has just kind of continued, continued, continued.

And I've gone to different physical therapists to work on it and have had like a bunch of different theories thrown out of what's going on.

And sometimes it would get better and then sometimes it would be really debilitating and bad.

And so eventually a few weeks ago, I just kind of got really fed up with it and booked a sports medicine doctor appointment just to kind of get their two cents.

And unfortunately the sports medicine doctor thinks this is quite serious and thinks potentially I have a stress fracture in my sacrum.

And potentially the stress fracture could be from just really continuously being either pregnant and or breastfeeding or pregnant and breastfeeding for the last 28 months of my life.

And I have run for almost all of that, right? I've now taken a few weeks off here since finding out I am potentially have a stress fracture and also I took about seven-ish weeks off postpartum with my first son, my first baby.

But, you know, really for the most part, I have been running and training and lifting for, you know, the whole time I have been pregnant or breastfeeding or pregnant and breastfeeding.

And, you know, I want to talk a little bit right now about like comparison and how you see all of these great runners on Instagram.

And I even personally know some of these women And they were pregnant and running marathons.

And then it feels like four to six weeks postpartum, they're jumping right back into training and they're running a marathon within that first year postpartum.

And it just seems so easy and effortless for them.

And I feel so frustrated that...

It hasn't been that way for me that I've had all these injuries pop up and pain pop up.

And, you know, this is something that feels so weird to me because I dealt with a lot of injury in my 20s when I was under eating.

But really, I haven't had any kind of like pain.

serious or chronic injury in a really long time.

I mean, since I started feeling and taking care of myself and taking rest days and training smart, you know, really those issues have, um, disappeared.

And so it's been like a very weird comeback season.

And, um, so yeah, I don't really know what's going on.

And, um, I did go get a second opinion and the second opinion doesn't seem as, you know, this first doctor was very like confident in their diet and his diagnosis that it's a sacral stress fracture.

Um, and the second doctor didn't feel so confident and we're trying to get an MRI approved, but it's a little complicated because I'm When I first got the diagnosis that I had a stress fracture, it felt kind of, I don't want to say easy to rest, but it felt like, okay, I can do this.