Oct 11, 2026 · 49 min · 9 segments
What happens when the grief you've been preparing for becomes reality? This week on The Mourning Coffee Podcast, I'm talking with Gary Nadeau, author of I Love You Mostest, about losing his…
Brooke CarlockHost
Gary, I want to go back because you said something that kind of struck me and I just love the honesty where you're someone who practiced mindfulness for a really long time through some really difficult events.
But then you admitted there that, you know, in that first year or so, you were like, it's so hard.
Like I know what I'm supposed to do, but don't tell me to like breathe and what I'm supposed to think and to practice gratitude.
Could you talk a little bit more about that, kind of what that felt like and then how maybe you got back into mindfulness after that? Like what is mindfulness to you and how did the evolution go, I guess, with that?
And at the time, again, I didn't know this at the time, but I was brought up Roman Catholic, you know, faithful Roman Catholic church every Sunday, blah, blah, blah, blah.
That fell apart to me, for me, probably between the first two strokes, between the first and second stroke, watching my boy suffer and stuff.
And it wasn't... like this to religion kind of thing, right? I actually taught CCD, started investigating originally, really looking into it.
So I thought every time we go to Boston, we got a prayer line from here to California because I have relatives in California.
Every time I went to Boston Children's Hospital, they were going to say, holy crap, he's better.
Gary, I want to go back because you said something that kind of struck me and I just love the honesty where you're someone who practiced mindfulness for a really long time through some really difficult events.
But then you admitted there that, you know, in that first year or so, you were like, it's so hard.
Like I know what I'm supposed to do, but don't tell me to like breathe and what I'm supposed to think and to practice gratitude.
Could you talk a little bit more about that, kind of what that felt like and then how maybe you got back into mindfulness after that? Like what is mindfulness to you and how did the evolution go, I guess, with that?
And at the time, again, I didn't know this at the time, but I was brought up Roman Catholic, you know, faithful Roman Catholic church every Sunday, blah, blah, blah, blah.
That fell apart to me, for me, probably between the first two strokes, between the first and second stroke, watching my boy suffer and stuff.
And it wasn't... like this to religion kind of thing, right? I actually taught CCD, started investigating originally, really looking into it.
So I thought every time we go to Boston, we got a prayer line from here to California because I have relatives in California.
Every time I went to Boston Children's Hospital, they were going to say, holy crap, he's better.
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