Chasing Skinny, Finding Freedom - The Podcast Version

So my chapter, as I mentioned, is called Chasing Skinny, Finding Freedom.

It's about my life, of course, and it's my story about how I spent most of my life trying to be skinny.

All the diets, the pills.

My first memory of when this all started.

I wish I could share with you why this all started, but that is something I have yet to figure out.

I've never heard my parents talking about bodies like growing up.

I don't remember them talking about bodies weight.

anything like that like theirs mine or otherwise and I was never like put on a diet besides what I did to myself so I don't think this started at home I thought that I remembered someone calling me fat once not in my home but I also thought I wrote it in my little kid Lisa Frank diary but I found that diary and it's not in there so now I'm just kind of questioning all of it But honestly, if I had to take a guess, I would say it probably started from looking at magazines, one of which I mentioned in the chapter.

I actually talk about two magazines in my chapter.

One is where I believe all this may have started.

The other is something that helped me understand.

Get out of it.

But also then move into another issue.

You know, you're going to have to read the chapter for all that.

Anyway, this all could have started in one of those magazines that I read growing up.

But it also, by the way, I mean growing up like as 11, 12 years old when I started all this.

It could have been because I wasn't the most popular in school and I thought being smaller would help.

Or that being smaller would make my clothes look better and then I would be popular? Or I could get cuter clothes and then I'd be popular? I really have no idea.

I'm guessing, like I mentioned.

But maybe one day my therapist and I can figure it out.

But honestly, I don't...

I mean, I kind of want to know where, but I don't really care where or how it started.

I'm just glad I got over it.

And my deep down passion now is to help other women get over it, which is why I have Club Next Level.

And part of this passion is ensuring no other little girl goes through it.