Jul 22, 2026 · 2 hr 31 min · 13 segments
CONTENT WARNINGS: Gore, Graphic violence, harm to fantasy animals, the undead, blood, self harm, allusions to torture, crucifixion, blades, grief, misophonia Safety Protocols in place: Lines & Veils…
Jess JewellPanelistMatt RisbyPanelistWrenPanelistMichelle KellyPanelistWhat name did you surrender, and what did you believe you were giving it up for? It is in a modest chapel where the nameless legion gather to witness the growth in their ranks.
They sit quiet in pews, eyes darting about to see who has grown worthy.
The night commander is a wide, solemn figure at the altar, the moniker Bear given to him because of how he layers furs beneath his armor, like a beast trying to burst free from their trappings.
I kneel on the steps with the other unproven, many of whom I do not know,
I do.
Two candlebearers trail either side of the night commander, light of the ever-burning, held in their wax-laden hands, witnesses of the proceedings.
Bear stands before me, first, his blade glinting in the flames as it hovers.
The light moves molten in the sword, and I feel entranced watching it lift above my head, and he tells me, surrender your name, the first sacrifice of the burden, and I do.
Zora of the noble house Torlanus.
And I see them exchange a glance of concern or pity.
I can't quite tell.
I can imagine what they've heard of the cruelty done to those who would oppose our house, of the brutality of the members within.
bare stoic tells me to recite the oaths and i do i devote myself to humility in thought and deed never to seek esteem or honor or praise i have held all of these things and they've brought me no end of hell my body keeps a litany of scars laid into my skin from the jealousy of my cousins from the envy of my siblings at my talents Such was I, the first of my parents.
Of course, it means that I am most favoured.
And for Talana's favour is endless eyes and plots and schemes.
My own wishes were silenced under the weight of what it would mean for our name, our family.
I remember the sharp nails of my mother digging into my shoulder to keep me in my seat as my father brokered a deal for my future.
My own feelings on the matter be damned.
To deny the orders of family is a betrayal, so here I kneel a traitor to that family, glad to be rid of the blasted title of Torlanus and all their foul destinies as I swear to temper my own desires and live in service of people better than those who created me.
Bear moves on to the next when I am done and I glance again at the one unproven I know, at the black ribbon adorning his hair this solemn day, the blue he favoured tight in my vest.
His eyes meet mine and I hold tight in my heart to a different oath, an oath sworn to one alone whose name has been surrendered to me first.
What name did you surrender, and what did you believe you were giving it up for? It is in a modest chapel where the nameless legion gather to witness the growth in their ranks.
They sit quiet in pews, eyes darting about to see who has grown worthy.
The night commander is a wide, solemn figure at the altar, the moniker Bear given to him because of how he layers furs beneath his armor, like a beast trying to burst free from their trappings.
I kneel on the steps with the other unproven, many of whom I do not know,
I do.
Two candlebearers trail either side of the night commander, light of the ever-burning, held in their wax-laden hands, witnesses of the proceedings.
Bear stands before me, first, his blade glinting in the flames as it hovers.
The light moves molten in the sword, and I feel entranced watching it lift above my head, and he tells me, surrender your name, the first sacrifice of the burden, and I do.
Zora of the noble house Torlanus.
And I see them exchange a glance of concern or pity.
I can't quite tell.
I can imagine what they've heard of the cruelty done to those who would oppose our house, of the brutality of the members within.
bare stoic tells me to recite the oaths and i do i devote myself to humility in thought and deed never to seek esteem or honor or praise i have held all of these things and they've brought me no end of hell my body keeps a litany of scars laid into my skin from the jealousy of my cousins from the envy of my siblings at my talents Such was I, the first of my parents.
Of course, it means that I am most favoured.
And for Talana's favour is endless eyes and plots and schemes.
My own wishes were silenced under the weight of what it would mean for our name, our family.
I remember the sharp nails of my mother digging into my shoulder to keep me in my seat as my father brokered a deal for my future.
My own feelings on the matter be damned.
To deny the orders of family is a betrayal, so here I kneel a traitor to that family, glad to be rid of the blasted title of Torlanus and all their foul destinies as I swear to temper my own desires and live in service of people better than those who created me.
Bear moves on to the next when I am done and I glance again at the one unproven I know, at the black ribbon adorning his hair this solemn day, the blue he favoured tight in my vest.
His eyes meet mine and I hold tight in my heart to a different oath, an oath sworn to one alone whose name has been surrendered to me first.
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