Jul 24, 2026 · 23 min · 11 segments
What happens when you grow up without hearing “I love you,” without being held, and without learning what safe, enduring affection feels like? In this deeply personal solo episode of *Midnight…
Lisa LacyHost
It is already available on Apple Podcasts, and toward the end of that conversation, I told a story I've told in pieces before, but perhaps never fully understood.
My father would eventually write it in letters, but those letters I didn't open until after he was dead.
There is something uniquely cruel about discovering the words you needed from somebody only after there is no longer a possibility of hearing it from them in their own voice.
They were waiting for me, but they arrived too late to change the child who had already learned to live without them.
It is already available on Apple Podcasts, and toward the end of that conversation, I told a story I've told in pieces before, but perhaps never fully understood.
My father would eventually write it in letters, but those letters I didn't open until after he was dead.
There is something uniquely cruel about discovering the words you needed from somebody only after there is no longer a possibility of hearing it from them in their own voice.
They were waiting for me, but they arrived too late to change the child who had already learned to live without them.
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