[ominous music] You learn things about a building when it empties out.
I lived in mine eleven years and never once heard it.
Not really.
There's always something.
A pipe, a television, somebody's dog, the elevator settling in its shaft like a held breath let go.
You stop hearing it the way you stop hearing your own heart.
It's just the sound of not being alone.
I want to tell you about the summer.
The sound stopped.
The heat came in the first week of July, and it did not leave.
I've lived through hot summers.
This wasn't that.
A hot summer breathes.
It builds through the afternoon and breaks at night, gives you back a few cool hours to be a person in.
This one didn't break.
The night was just the day with the lights off.
By the second week, the news stopped saying record and started saying dome, like the sky had been sealed shut, and I suppose it had.
Ninety-nine at midnight, a hundred and four by ten in the morning.
The asphalt went soft.
The pigeons stopped flying and stood in the shade with their beaks open, like they were screaming and had run out of sound.
I was on the ninth floor, top of the building, which in July is the worst place you can be, because heat is a climber.
It comes up through the floors and pools against the roof, and there's nowhere left for it to go, so it goes into you.
My apartment faced west.
By four o'clock, the sun came through those windows like an accusation, and I'd sit very still in the one corner that wasn't on fire and try not to make more of myself, more skin, more breath, more heat.
Across the hall was Edith Adler, nine C, eighty-three years old and sharp as the day she was born, which she'd tell you herself, usually right before she forgot where she'd put her glasses.
[ominous music] You learn things about a building when it empties out.
I lived in mine eleven years and never once heard it.
Not really.
There's always something.
A pipe, a television, somebody's dog, the elevator settling in its shaft like a held breath let go.
You stop hearing it the way you stop hearing your own heart.
It's just the sound of not being alone.
I want to tell you about the summer.
The sound stopped.
The heat came in the first week of July, and it did not leave.
I've lived through hot summers.
This wasn't that.
A hot summer breathes.
It builds through the afternoon and breaks at night, gives you back a few cool hours to be a person in.
This one didn't break.
The night was just the day with the lights off.
By the second week, the news stopped saying record and started saying dome, like the sky had been sealed shut, and I suppose it had.
Ninety-nine at midnight, a hundred and four by ten in the morning.
The asphalt went soft.
The pigeons stopped flying and stood in the shade with their beaks open, like they were screaming and had run out of sound.
I was on the ninth floor, top of the building, which in July is the worst place you can be, because heat is a climber.
It comes up through the floors and pools against the roof, and there's nowhere left for it to go, so it goes into you.
My apartment faced west.
By four o'clock, the sun came through those windows like an accusation, and I'd sit very still in the one corner that wasn't on fire and try not to make more of myself, more skin, more breath, more heat.
Across the hall was Edith Adler, nine C, eighty-three years old and sharp as the day she was born, which she'd tell you herself, usually right before she forgot where she'd put her glasses.
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