HASHTAG # HEALING PHASE - EPI 42

to just more and more defeat or chaos or more weight like you you're taking more on like what good is all this so all just you know you're making a decision in emotion which is not healthy um and you probably haven't processed all your emotions Um, what I know just from like my season of complete meltdown, we're at a panic attack, which you don't control those.

I found that out.

Like I kept in my head getting there.

We started the conversation here.

You get the next right answer.

And so you just go work the next right answer.

Any answer you have to fix something, you go fix whatever you can fix, but you're not dealing with anything.

So it's all mounting up in the heart and internally, and you haven't done any of it.

And if you're a dude, I can't speak for women, you're still able to kind of operate because you're accomplishing something until you can't.

Yeah, and you're on autopilot using your gifts and talents to accomplish whatever.

The real problem, and I even heard from the Lord, was you have all this responsibility, but really what you have is fear and a lot of excuses, right? is you're called to step away and minister and be refreshed, but get your soul ministered to, get your spirit ministered to, fill up, rest your body, rest your mind, bring peace in from somewhere.

And the only place that peace comes in when there's chaos is time with the Lord.

You have to get away.

I have yet to have a bunch of stuff go on ever and get on a boat and hit water and get 10 feet off of a dock and water and stuff not change.

Like, it breaks something for me, being in what God created.

And a lot of guys say they get that out of the woods, but, like, I'm away from whatever was pulling at me, whatever was talking to me, the massive amount of weight, and I can just get some kind of, like, clarity.

Thad, you can probably do that when you run.

Yeah, and that's

one of the reasons I do run is just to, like, anything I've been thinking about is... you just stop thinking about it because you have to focus on, I got to take another step, I got to take another step, I got to get home, I got to do this, like, whatever.

And it's like, just run.

And, yeah, I mean, I haven't ran this week because I did a trail race last week, which was super fun.

But, yeah, I mean, I ran 15 miles on Sunday.

But it

was awesome

because it was like, man, this is like the – The responsibilities of like home, the responsibilities of kids, of work, of whatever.