For The Girls Waiting On The Love They're Praying For

It is so important to be able to reflect on that, to recognize that.

When I think about myself before I met my husband, before I got engaged, before I was planning some big elaborate wedding, like I could not have fully pictured what my everyday life would look like now.

You know? Like, that's something that we forget when we're in that waiting season.

We imagine what the idea of what we want would be like.

We imagine the wedding.

We imagine the husband.

We imagine the house, the family, just like the general thing.

Like, we imagine what it will feel like to finally get the things, the big things that we're asking for, but we don't imagine all of the little moments that come with it.

We don't imagine sitting on the couch together doing absolutely nothing.

We don't imagine going grocery shopping together or the car rides together.

We don't imagine the random conversations at 11 o'clock at night when you're laying in bed.

We don't imagine waking up, you know, next to the same person every morning and what that's like.

We certainly don't imagine the arguments.

We don't imagine the disagreements where we're on each other's last nerve and then laughing five minutes later because we just can't even take each other seriously at the moment.

But those are the things that actually become your life.

That's what you live every single day, 24/7.

And that's what has been so special about this first year for me.

The thing that I prayed for all those years didn't just arrive in one big beautiful moment on my wedding day.

It showed up in hundreds of tiny little moments after that.

Quite frankly, I think it's funny how, like, how much leads up to the wedding.

And this is also why I didn't wanna have a long engagement, and I didn't, like, wanna go so crazy with certain things.

Like, I just wanted-- Like, I bo- w- whoever was meant to be a vendor at my wedding and whatever was meant to be, that was gonna be.

And, like, I just, I booked what I booked as quickly as I possibly can, and I had the wedding as quickly as we possibly could, and I just did it all.

Because, like, for me, it was never about the wedding.

It was about the marriage.