Do You Really Belong at the Next Level? - #253

I think you should start with all the things you're celebrating first before you get into your challenges that you

experienced.

What are you celebrating? Other than just getting around, what else are you celebrating?

What else am I celebrating? I'm celebrating, like you say, not only have God...

That getting around, of course, that's the end result.

But I think I'm celebrating

all the little things and all the things that I have managed to overcome and all the ways that I've figured it out and made it work.

All those little things that have made that possible for me, it's obviously not coincidence that you managed to put that around.

Those are immense amount of hours of work that I put in to afford it all.

to you know get to know the right people to get me to that point trainings late evenings riding in shitter weather uh improving improving improving improving having tough dressage trainings having having hard rides having rides where you feel like you're shit like all those little things and still continue going all the self-doubts like jesus christ amount of self-doubts and you know the amounts of times I've had to switch my thoughts to keep on believing in that we can actually do this the amounts of just just little things that neglect you it's like oh what are you doing what are you even doing like you're you're insane like this is this is this is just not um what's the word responsible like this is not a you know you shouldn't be doing this yet you're not good enough yada yada yada yeah and so yeah that clear round yes it is a clear round it's a result on paper but I think it means it's a success in so many little ways there's because you know how many things you had to overcome mentally physically training wise to even come to that start line

And I think absolutely 100% agree with what you've said.

And I think it's not just mentally and physically overcoming stuff.

And we were chatting about this before.

This is not your full-time job.

It's not my full-time job.

We are not full-time riders.

And there are very few riders in our sport that are at top level and hold a full-time job as well.

And it's just, it's all...

It's all the emotion as well that's tied up in, you know, having a business, having clients, having work, like having life, having a husband, a dog, like all those other things as well, whilst trying to train and compete at top level.

Yeah, 100%.

100%.

Because, you know, when you're standing there and I, you know, I'm completely honest about this.

I was lost after Dressage, which wasn't a surprise.

Like, it wasn't a surprise that we would be lost after Dressage.

And then it's so easy to go like...