The Light that never Leaves with Host Tara Hynes Episode One

And still, I spend years trying to forget it.

I live my life, I follow the expected paths, I stay busy, I stay practical, I stay reasonable.

Every so often, that quiet inner voice rises again, soft, patient, persistent.

I feel it in my chest, in the moments of stillness, under moonlight, looking up at the stars, and more times than I can remember and count, I ignore it.

Not because it isn't real, but because I don't feel ready.

or worthy or enough.

Because answering a call like that means allowing yourself to be supported.

And that's terrifying when you've learned to survive on your own.

So I minimise it.

I explain it away and I tell myself I imagined it.

And yet it never leaves.

What I understand now, what I'm finally choosing fully is this.

The divine never left.

Not when I doubted.

Not when I delayed.

Not when I pretended not to hear.

The connection didn't disappear.

It waited.

And the moment I stopped running from it, stopped minimising it, stopped telling myself I was making it up, it was right there.