Coming Out of A Spiritual Closet with Host of Angels Connect Tara Hynes Episode 1

I came out of the spiritual closet slowly.

So I was a nurse.

And for a long time, I lived what looked like perfectly respectable life.

From the outside, everything made sense.

I wore the scrubs.

I worked the 12-hour shifts.

People trusted me with their bodies, with their pain, with their lives.

I was capable, grounded, reliable.

And quietly, I was hiding.

Not because I didn't believe in spirituality, but because I did.

And that felt risky because the word spiritual is almost like a loaded question.

It gets misunderstood and tangled up with religion or assumptions, projections.

I was afraid people would think I'd lost my credibility, afraid they'd stop trusting me, afraid that if I let myself be fully seen, something important would be taken away or judged.

So I stayed where it felt safer.

Or at least where I told myself it was safer.

But here's that thing about hiding.

At first, it feels like protection, like you're being responsible, strategic, smart.

But over time, protection starts to feel like pressure, like holding your breath underwater, like wearing clothes that don't fit anymore and pretending that they still do.

I could feel it in my body, a tightness in my chest, that quiet heaviness, a low level grief that didn't make sense on paper because nothing was wrong and yet something was missing.

There was this gentle pull inside me.

Not loud, not dramatic, no lightning bolt moment, just a quiet knowing.

You're not meant to stay here forever.

But I didn't leap.

I didn't burn my life down.

I didn't announce anything.