Live with Shauna Rae - Day 15 of 100 Days

Uh, all of us have relationships.

All of us have relationships in our lives, right? And our closest relationships are the ones that teach us the deepest, hardest, and, and most powerful lessons, I would say.

And perhaps we don't even realize the l- that it is a lesson when the lesson is happening.

The reason I'm saying all that [laughs] is because, uh, in my primary relationship, and I think a lot of people it's the same thing, you get into cycles of, uh, habits of arguing or habits of beliefs even.

They become old and stuck, and you can work hard on changing them.

It, it, it is part of life and, and being with somebody for a long time.

And this one re-revolves around a major theme, and I felt really low.

I felt really low personally.

I, I don't want to...

These talks or, are about me and my life, so I am kind of gingerly or I guess, um, tiptoeing because I don't want to...

While I am a public, uh, while I am being public, um, not everyone in my life wants to be public, let's put it that way.

And so I was feeling low though that, you know, "Oh, no, we've gone down this cycle again.

What is this gonna mean? Uh, I'm angry.

I feel defeated.

Uh, I feel unheard." And I ruminate about it.

And because I don't go to a full-time job, I don't sit in an office or have regular office hours, and that is my choice.

I don't...

I, I, I journal about it.

That, that's what I do.

When I feel conflicted about things, when I'm feeling low, when I really need motivation, when I wanna get myself unstuck, I write it out.

And so I couldn't sleep this morning at, I wanna say 4:30 in the morning, and I got up and just journaled page after page after page.

I'm just being really honest [laughs] and it, it's the thing that's on my mind, and so that's why I'm bringing it up first.

And, and it makes me feel better.

Journaling always makes me feel better.

It always brings me back to a place of, uh, gratitude.