Victor Turpin

What was that like?

Again, you know, a lot of anxious times, a lot of guilt, a lot of, even if I even looked at a guy and I thought they were attractive, I would like chastise myself in my mind and say, you know, stop thinking that.

That's a stupid thought.

It took a lot of effort to not be me.

you would see a guy that you might thought was attractive did you ever did you ever sort of worry that somebody might see you checking somebody else out oh constantly

i'd run in my head what did i say was i flirting was it too much was i looking too long um And it got to the point where I didn't even like look at someone.

It was just like, you know, hey, I guess I didn't want to, you know, give anything away.

And I felt guilt if I did because I was married, you know.