Yeah.

I was, I was, I was, I was smoking weed, but more importantly, I was, I was experimenting heavily with methamphetamine at this time.

Right.

So I had an addiction of my own.

The very thing that I ran away from that she was struggling with is the habit that I picked up.

And now as a teenager, I was fully engulfed in.

So my reasoning for being around wasn't to come back for a loving mother.

And