[laughs]

... my life was down here.

He could just come home at weekends, and that's the way I saw it.

That was, you know, we knew he only had a matter of years left, uh, in the Army before he'd be coming out, so we were just kinda just see, we were just, you know, going with that.

And, and obviously when all that changed, you know, he didn't want to have to be leaving me on a Sunday afternoon and not coming back till the Friday evening for, you know, my parents and friends to have to look after me and me and our son.

So we kind of, our, our, we, at that point, we moved to be with him in Rutland.

And so our kind of world changed even more so because I didn't have anyone he knew up there, didn't have any more support, you know, didn't have a support net up there, but we were together as a family.

And, uh, w- so, so what, what-