What was it?

It was just fear of the unknown, the pressure.

Not what people were going to think? Also what people were going to think, because look at this economy.

I mean...

they don't need to tell you that this is not the economy to have five children, right? Are you living a very comfortable life? Are you living in luxury that you feel like you can have five children? Also, people ask you about, is that all you people do in your marriage? Just have children.

You're not thinking about your career.

You're not thinking about...

Yes, it's something

Without telling me who it was, if it was, between yourself and your husband, was there somebody who thought, let's not go ahead with the twins?

Namina.

Like, I was just like, huh? What are we doing? Like, every day I'm just like...

This is not a joke.

Like, I wake up in the night panicking, sweating.

Yes, sweating, crying.

Like, I could just wake up and I just start thinking, oh.

Yes, it's something