Psychosynthesis

Yes, exactly.

What else is there? What more is there? Psychosynthesis, which is what I study and I talk a lot about it in the book, we call it a crisis of meaning.

So this idea that actually there are two dimensions to us.

There's the horizontal dimension, which is the material life, the physical matter, and then there's the horizontal, which is the more spiritual.

In the span of a few years, Barbara made a suite of seminal films within a short succession during her time as a film student.

Films that she would later refer to as the Psychosynthesis Trilogy.

She would call them the most vulnerable films she's ever made.

I Was, I Am was only her second 16mm film.

So Terry's testing out aliases, names to differentiate between her selves, her id and her superego, the furcation of her mother self, her lesbian self, her poet self, her radical self, her middle-class self.

Terry is her logical self, the academic, the mother, and Jessica is impulsive, romantic, poetic, Barbara, too, is becoming interested in the process of psychosynthesis, the therapeutic model dedicated to the recovery of the self through the synthesis of one's subpersonalities.

Psychosynthesis is a film of gestalt fantasy work, uniting my subpersonalities of athlete, baby, witch, and artist.

In 1975, she'd make the final film in her Psychosynthesis trilogy, expanding on the work she'd already done in I Was, I Am and X.