Mm-hmm

... not try to compare what the numbers are, what does success look like on social media.

But like I had, I started writing on Substack, for instance, as a new thing, very new thing back in the spring of this year just for myself, for me to process my own thoughts, to process how to reframe the loss so it happened for me, so that I could discover who I am when I wasn't being a wife, when I wasn't being a business partner to Doug, when I wasn't being a parent, co-parent, when I wasn't co-parenting.

Um, what, like what, who was-- I had to go, not kinda, not go back.

I was like, okay, the first thir- first 30 years, Doug was not in my life.

Then he was in my life for 30 years.

I've probably got another 30 years to go easily of productivity, and knowing me, I'm not good at being unhappy other than, yes, I'm grieving, like acknowledging the grieving, acknowledging it's a body, it's a body process too.

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It's your story, and it's the, it's the recovery story as well, which is a key-

Yes.

I mean, you're absolutely right.

You can want to have the best life, and I feel like I had created the best life, and, uh, yeah, October 6th, 2023, I was sitting at my desk working, and I got a phone call, and it was our neighbor and friend, and he said, "Mitra, something has happened." And, uh, so I started talking to him.

At first, I thought he was joking the way he started talking.

He said, because they, he and my husband had gone paragliding that morning, and he said Doug had a fall.

And my brain was really not computing.

Where you are now, which is I can see you're looking forward for life, you're excited, you're motivated, your energy's there.