this? And by the way,

yes.

And what's the next level of success that I'm going to strive for? Am I going to fall right back into that? same trap.

I can remember my dear wife saying to me, are you going to, are you going to be like building another one of these things? Oh, and she's the one that really hit me hard by saying, you've missed a lot of your life by, and I followed you and I've trusted you and I still believe in you, but you paid a huge price for this.

So for me, it was like, As a man, I'm wired to be the provider and the protector.

And for so many years, I thought providing was just bringing home that big fat check and the big bonus.

And I realized that I was so far from reality.

Sure.