So can you talk to us about that?

Yeah, absolutely.

So for a long time, I didn't watch myself on television because I was like, I'm very critical and I'm hard on myself.

Like, you can say something to me.

I've said it to myself times 10.

You know what I'm saying? And I just started, I started just, I became this person the internet wanted to see.

And I'm like, who am I? Like, I wouldn't say I lost myself because I always knew who I was.

Did you just, is that kind of how it felt? Like, like you were describing that, um, you know, you, were you not, were you feeling like you weren't able to be yourself when the cameras stopped rolling?